"Having lost faith in myself, I separated from the situation, left programming forever, and tested my meddle & intelligence in other fields. Turns out, I'm still brilliant: one of only 20 people in the world with doctorates in science, medicine & law; traveled to 100+ countries on 7 continents; wrote books & magazine articles, produced podcasts, developed a philosophy, and showed that it was always me who was the special one, everybody else was a hanger-on. And you know what? I also gained wisdom enough to not care. So what if I lost back-in-the-day? It was still a good ride: achieved my big goal of making-movies, got recognized by newspapers & magazines; and did something noteworthy with my youth. So now, after a decade away & regained self-confidence, I can look at Hash & Animation:Master, and see how excellent they are. I want to get back acquainted with tradeshows, customer art, and the forum community."
A lot of personal intimate information in there. I really appreciate you sharing that with us. I believe without question that you are brilliant. I say this with respect, love and appreciation for all that you have done for us. For me particularly I have used your software in multiple commercials. I can't help but feel after reading the above that there is still some mental emotional cancer ailing you. Perhaps I'm wrong but if not I highly recommend going to an UPW event. I bet my life it will clean out whatever is left. Despite any preconceived notions, you might have it has the effect of a je ne sais quoi. Being as brilliant as you are I suspect you may believe there is a possibility of something new and great in yourself you have yet to discover.